I saw the #LondonStays demonstration on Channel 4 News the other night and the thousands of young people who are angry and I can’t say I blame them.
I can remember being young, or at least I think I do. That remarkable sense that absolutely anything is possible and that if you really want to do something you can. That wonderful mix of hope and arrogance that makes you believe that you matter, that your contribution to the world might actually make a difference.
I’ve mentioned it before, but as a teenager I fell in love, learnt German and went to study Geology in Vienna. This all began in 1977 long before Austria had joined the European Union. When it was still economically and politically a bridge between the East and the West and long before the EU and Schengen made travel across Europe as cheap and as simple as it is today.
At the tender age of 17, I remember making my first trip to Vienna by train. I got the route all wrong and instead of having to endure the 24 hour journey from Victoria to Vienna via Ostende, I went for a more scenic route via Paris that took over 36 hours. Unsurprisingly (it was the first time I’d travelled abroad alone) I didn’t have any Francs, dragged my suitcase from one station to another and still remember my horror when I realised that you had to pay to use the toilet at the Gare de L’Est.
For me it was an adventure, a journey across a continent in the middle of a Cold War, still scarred by its recent past. I remember the smoke filled train stopping in the middle of the night at a border, and soldiers with machine guns walking down the train checking passports. On another trip I remember going to the border with Czechoslovakia to look at the Iron Curtain with its guard towers and machine gun posts. I remember visiting the farm of a friend’s grandmother in the south of the country, not far from the border with Yugoslavia and I remember how much she hated the Yugoslavian migrants and how much respect she had for Hitler and the things he had done for the people. Another man who got his country back.
I remember going to the part of Austria that had been conquered by the Russians and discovering that, at the time, most of the young and not so young women had been raped by their conquerors. Have you ever been to a village where you’ve known that every woman over a certain age has been raped? Or where many of the older citizens, both men and women had witnessed or been complicit in unspeakable acts of war and brutality?
I remember my girlfriend’s grandfather sitting on a chair in the garden, shaking, staring at me, yet lost in his past. He never once spoke to me. I remember her father. A working man who rose before dawn and who most days would not return before the sun had set; who built his own home at the weekends; who had been in the Hitler Youth and who, at the age of 15 had been given a gun and drafted into the Volksturm to defend his family’s village.
It’s been a week now since we got our country back, and in the course of that week we have learnt how fragile our unity really is. The seemingly unrealistic idea that our continent could never again fall into conflict, somehow doesn’t seem so absurd any more. The rise of racism is coupled with an inability on the part of most of us to understand the role that our actions have played in feeding the confidence of The Right. And the extent of its roots within the working classes reminds me of another country and another time and another kind of scapegoat.
Thursday the 23rd of June was an act of political fear and economic self-harm, but it was not the end of the world. Over time and with far better leadership than we are seeing at the moment, we may be able to create a positive economic future for ourselves. We may be able to create a niche within the global economy. An agile player between the ever larger and ever more cumbersome trading blocks and let’s hope for all our sakes that we do.
But what I fear most, is perhaps what the young people of #LondonStays seemed to understand and give voice to. The EU gave us the ability to define ourselves more broadly; not just as British, Austrians, Irish, Italians, French and Germans. We could imagine ourselves as European Citizens, an integral part of a community of peoples. A community of peoples that could struggle imperfectly to leave behind the memories and scars of its wars.
And now for us that is gone and what already seems to be replacing it is an ever narrowing sense of national identity. We are no longer European Citizens, perhaps not even British. We are already becoming English, Welsh, Scottish and Northern Irish. Somehow the country we are getting back is not the one we had. So perhaps the greatest challenge for us now isn’t economic. It’s not even fighting to get back into the EU, it’s the struggle with an insidious political Right and the fight against the rise of racist forms of nationalism. Ultimately it’s the struggle for decency in our identities, for how we imagine ourselves to be. Do we forget the lessons of the past and define ourselves ever more narrowly in a world of threats and strangers or do we imagine ourselves as something new? Something bolder. A global people in a global age?